Time, and lack thereof.

I am seriously struggling with making time to blog. Before returning to work, I wondered when I would get anything done, since I was busy enough just being home with Hadley. Now that I've returned to work, I'm still wondering how and when I'll be able to get anything done. The bed goes unmade, laundry is now put off until Levi and I are down to our last hole-ridden pair of underwear, and all the little things I used to enjoy with Hadley, like having my cheese and crackers and playing with her while we watch Law & Order, are permanently on the back burner. This is truly hard for me to deal with. I am very grateful for my job, but it's difficult to come home after working a long day and only have a couple of hours with Hadley before she's asleep for the night. On top of that, I'm too tired to do anything other than veg-out on the couch and climb into bed around 11:00pm. I hate doing anything that takes me away from Hadley when I'm not working, like going to the dentist or any other mandatory appointments. I feel like I want to spend every second with her when I'm not working, and it's hard to share that time with my other responsibilities. I'm hoping these feelings work themselves out and that I don't always feel anxious when I don't get to be with Hadley. I just miss her so much when I'm not with her.

How can I stay away from this Cabbage Patch Doll-face?

Another source of my crabbiness is the fact that it seems like summer in Boise will never come. I remember when it used to be hot in Utah and Idaho by the end of May. Like, really hot. Now both states have cold rainstorms and cloudy days well into June. I hear this is just a cycle the earth is going through, and I really hope so, because being this pasty pale in June is just unacceptable. I can't wait to take Hadley while wearing shorts and feeling the sun beat down on us. Maybe I need to move to Arizona or somewhere like that.

Enough of the crankiness...I want to celebrate the fun that I got to have this last week. Laurie and three of her girls came up this weekend and we had such a blast. Rachel, Kate, and Sydney were so excited to meet Hadley and all took turns carrying her around (when they could pry her out of Laurie's arms!) I think Kate and Syd thought she would be a little more....active? They kept asking me when she would start talking or when she'd be able to sit up. They just wanted another best friend/cousin and are probably bummed they'll have to wait a little while before she can keep up with them!

Hadley also had her two month immunizations last week. She did very well, and was only feverish for a couple of days. She is growing so fast! After her doc appointment I got to go to the new mom's class at St. Luke's again. Luckily, I've mostly had Thursday mornings off and have been able to go quite frequently. I love talking with all the other new moms and comparing notes. Today, one of the moms opened up to me about her sadness about returning to work the following week. I just told her my coping skills and let her know that one of the best things about being a working mom is running home to see your baby at the end of your shift. It's pure joy every time! I hope I can stay in touch with some of these women after our babies are too big and we're too experienced to call ourselves "new moms."

Hadley after getting her shots. Such as sad face!
Besides the new moms group, St. Lukes has provided us with such great resources over the years. Levi and I have both had surgeries there and we've loved all the classes they've provided regarding child birth and child care. Plus, they've always been so accommodating when it comes time to make payment arrangements. It's so neat to know that St. Luke's started out as a quaint little hospital and has blossomed into a huge feature in Boise, literally spreading out across the city as more and more offices and annexes open. Plus, they have amazing landscaping. Walking around the hospital grounds in the spring is like walking around a botanical garden. I heard a rumor that someone left a large chunk of their inheritance to St. Luke's to go towards the gorgeous flowers and trees, but I'm not sure if that's true.

The old, original part of St. Luke's. Sorry about the sunshine glare. Despite looking like a warm sunny day, I assure you it was very chilly.

The main St. Luke's hospital. I wish I had a picture with all the flowers and bushes!

Well I'm off to continue to have a great day off. I already got an amazing hike in and now my blog is updated so I can go clean our bedroom and do some laundry!