Wait, slow down!

Today I had my (now) weekly checkup with my OB and found out that I'm already dilated to a 3.75. Wait, what??! Hardly any of my mom's grandkids came on time and I assumed I'd be drinking castor oil a week after my April 13th due date, now I'm worried I might not make it to April at all! I had even gone into my appointment with the intention of finding out how liberal my doc is with inducing labor, but I guess I won't have to worry about that!
Actually, I hear that lots of women dilate this early and then still deliver on time. I'd really like to deliver perfectly on time because then I'll have all of May off before I go back to work. May in Boise can be gorgeous. (It can also be awful weather too, just one of the perks of living in the west, I suppose!) So we shall see what this little girl has in store! (On a side note, does everyone else say the word "dilate" like there was a second "A" in it, like, "dye-a-late"? I wonder if it bothers doctors and nurses to hear all of us say it wrong, like how realtors must hate being called "Real-a-tors.")
Anyway, this week my oldest (eldest?) niece Athena turned 16 years old. Until now, with her turning 16 and my nephew Ryan turning 15, I had never felt old. I feel old now. These kids are old enough to date and drive and will be graduating in a couple of years! It makes my heart ache thinking of them when they were first born, watching them as they learned to walk, seeing them become the fine teenagers they are, etc. Now they're both taller than me and probably don't appreciate when I get teary eyed just thinking of babysitting them when they were wild toddlers. Happy birthday, Athena. You are such a sweet, sweet girl and I know you have an amazing life ahead of you!
We've been spending lots of time around the house "getting ready." Getting ready for the baby, getting ready for spring, etc. I absolutely LOVE this time of year. Buds are starting to come out on trees, tulips are thinking about coming up, days are longer and a little bit sunnier. Aaaahhh, summer can't get here soon enough! My mom is getting her future garden ready and Levi is building her some planter boxes. It's going to be awesome and the garden will smell amazing with all the herbs she's growing.

Well, I'm going to get some cuddling in with Levi. Hopefully I'll be able to do at least a few more blog posts before our little girl graces us with her presence. Wish me luck!

Yummm.

I just found out that yesterday was Jon Hamm's 40th birthday. Jon Hamm is the star of Mad Men, where he plays the deeply flawed, but devastatingly handsome Don Draper. Anywho, my friend from work sent this picture to me on my phone to celebrate his birthday.

Meee-Yow!
I don't even try to hide my crush from Levi, which is fine because he's busy drooling over Joan and Betty on Mad Men so I guess we'll call it even.

But not only is Jon Hamm amazing on Mad Men (as demonstrated below)


....he's also REALLY funny on SNL and 30 Rock!


Sigh. Happy birthday, Jon Hamm.

Boise Shower!

Holy crap!
My mom and Heather threw an amazing baby shower for me last Saturday. It was such a blast! Most of the Gates' clan and several friends were able to make it. Heather arranged to have it at the clubhouse at Harris Ranch and it was perfect! My mom made a great spinach and strawberry salad and Heather and her friend made delicious cupcakes. Julie brought awesome decorations and the whole thing just came together perfectly. People were invited to bring a package of diapers to be entered in a drawing for a $50 gift card to Asiago's and my friend Jill Millward, who made a beautiful quilt for my baby, won! I ended up with a large amount of diapers and I'm so happy to save that money that would have normally gone towards diapers. We played a couple of fun games and then I got to open all my awesome presents. There were so many and I was sweating trying to keep up! Thankfully my sister-in-law Sevy was there to help me keep track of who gave what gift so I can get thank-you notes out and Avery helped take some pics for me (I'm sorry I don't have any pictures of everyone who attended. I forgot to take any pics of Heather and my mom too!) Eliza and her friend Audrey helped keep everything organized and it was wonderful to take everything home and have it all nice and neat :)
Thank you to everyone who had a hand in the shower. I'm so grateful to be surrounded by people who are cheering me and the baby on. If you had told me a year ago that I'd be having a baby shower for my little girl, I wouldn't have believed it. It was almost exactly a year ago that we were told all the numerous things that were working against us having children and we honestly had started to give up hope. All those tears and all the pain we went through to create a baby has made me love this little girl more than I ever thought possible. I'm absolutely giddy at the thought of meeting her in a few weeks!
Thank you everyone.....I love you all so much!

Happy 31st Birthday, Levi!

In thirty minutes, my amazing, sexy, sweet husband will be 31 years old. There are not enough words, phrases, adjectives, etc. to describe all the things I love about Levi. Anyone who has met him knows exactly what I'm talking about. He's basically incredible.

And just think, he went from this awkward 13 year old:


To this handsome devil:


Love you to death!!!!

What To Expect: The 32nd Week.

This is still the most recent ultrasound picture we have. I'd love to see what she looks like now.
I'm halfway through my 32nd week of this pregnancy and I was browsing the What to Expect When You're Expecting website and I found a list of symptoms that I could be feeling this week. I have to say, I'm pretty lucky. The symptoms I have are manageable and non-icky.
According to the website, the 32nd week could bring the following:

Flatulence. Awesome. Icky, but so far not too much of a problem....I think.
Bloating. Oh yes. My ring is leaving a nice deep impression on my finger and my sock lines are out of control. (Remember when Carlie Paige was little and was obsessed with sock lines? She would have loved mine!)
Constipation. Again, icky, but not too much of a problem. You wanted to know that, right?
Occasional faintness or dizziness. Not too much, unless I'm trying to put on shoes, then I'm ready to pass out right then and there.
Hemorrhoids. Gross. And luckily not a problem for me.
Leg Cramps. Ding Ding Ding! We have a winner. This is the number one symptom for me. The crappy thing is, they only kick in right when I get into bed, so I spend half the night trying to meditate my legs into submission by thinking things like, "Don't think about your legs. They're not cramping. You're on a beach and your legs are covered in sand...." etc. It doesn't work, but I'll keep trying.
Itchy abdomen. Eh, a little, but nothing I can't handle. My legs get super itchy though. Oh and my feet and my arms. So I guess everything EXCEPT my abdomen itches.
Enlarged breasts. Levi wishes! Luckily my heaping bosoms have stayed the same huge size they always are, but I suspect that's going to change in the next few weeks. Blegh. Boobs are the worst.


Some symptoms that the website fails to mention, but I'm convinced apply to me are the following:
Extreme need of all things fattening/salty/sugary. Needs no explanation, just get out of my way if you see me screeching into the local convenience store parking lot.
A.D.D. When I first started bedrest, I read a bunch of books back to back, now I find that I can't read anything longer than a short story or a news article without getting bored. I also give up quickly on medium sudoku puzzles and I even *gasp* fast forward through House Hunters to see which house they pick. I'm hoping my patience returns soon, but I'm doubtful.
Obsessive list making. I have both mental and physical lists for a variety of things: Things we need next time we're at Ikea, ideas for the backyard, middle name ideas, remaining items needed for the nursery, things we need to study before the baby is born (Happiest Baby on the Block, etc.) and many more.
Continual dread when remembering I'll have to go back to work full time. Ugh. I try not to think about it, but that day is coming soon. I'm sure I'll be a tearful mess that day, and probably several days after that. You should all just stay away from BN for entire first month that I'm back to work, unless seeing an employee bawling her eyes out in the Family/Childcare section sounds like fun to you.

Anyway, as I've said before, this pregnancy has been so much fun and such a joy. I can see why people want to go through it over and over. It makes me feel so special and unique, like I have a secret that only I know. According to my countdown thingy, I have 52 days to go before I pop. I'm going to eat another doughnut and enjoy them!

Valentine's, diaper bags, and cartoons.

Valentine's Day came and went this year without too much fanfare. Levi and I are doing our best to save every dollar possible, so we agreed to just give each other cards this year (well, I gave him his favorite "Top Gear" magazine with his card and he gave me two giant Symphony chocolate bars with mine...the blue Symphony, of course, not the red.)
Levi has this natural ability to write the sweetest notes and cards of anyone I know. It's like he bottles up everything he's really feeling and pours it out on paper, which is just the opposite of me. I'll blab all day about nothing but then clam up when I need to write something important down. This year was no exception and Levi wrote a beautiful note inside my card about how we spent our first Valentine's day apart in 2005 and how he vows to not spend one day apart from me or our little girl for the rest of his life. Pretty darn sweet, if you ask me! The other great thing about this was the card itself. Check out how funny this thing is:


For dinner that night, Levi, Mom and I went to the local Mongolian BBQ place by our house and got take out. It was DEE-LICIOUS! I think the chefs thought I was lame because my meal was literally just noodles, meat and sauce, but that's the way I like it. It was fun watching people trying to fit as much food as possible in their bowl. Some people are creative with their packing, and my mom told me that my brother Scott is the king of packing a Mongolian BBQ bowl. We'll have to test him next time he comes up to Boise!


I got an awesome surprise this week when Heather dropped off my gorgeous new diaper bag. She has a friend who hand makes diaper bags and it is honestly my new favorite thing. I got to pick out my two fabrics and then she whipped up this beauty:

It has a bunch of pockets and is the perfect size for me (none of this wussy, small bag crap for me!)

I haven't been sleeping very well lately, which I know comes with the territory of the third trimester, but I'm usually such a deep sleeper and it's been hard. If it's not the massive amounts of heartburn keeping me up, it's the jimmy legs (restless/cramping legs, for all you non-Seinfeld people.) Also, rolling over isn't fun any more and requires me to grunt a lot and usually swear once or twice. All complaining aside, I wouldn't change any of this. I'm so glad to be able to feel any of these discomforts, I wouldn't give them up for anything. I'm going to miss being pregnant so much. I feel like I have this special little connection to our girl and I'm not sure I'm ready to share it with anyone else yet :) I'm sure by the time I'm completely swollen and dilated to 10 centimeters I'll be ready to share it with everyone, but not yet.

Also, this week I'm trying to find the best deal on a couple of DVDs. I want the Chip and Dale and the Donald Duck Classic Cartoon Favorites. I think Amazon probably has them cheapest. My little girl has to watch these classics like I did. Seriously, who doesn't remember Donald singing, "Mama's gonna make a little short'nin' bread."


This one was also a favorite of mine:

Valentine's Day Fun

I got this idea from the Today Show. You buy a giant size candy bar (literally, they're called "Giant Size" because the king size candy bars are no longer wrapped in tin foil) and you remove the wrapper and use fun paper to create your own wrapper. I did these for my co-managers at work.
It's fun to be able to take the time to do these kinds of projects. I'll miss this stuff when I have to return to work this spring :(

Utah Baby Shower!

Cream puffs AND eclairs?!?
What a great weekend!
Levi, my mom, and I drove down to Utah late Thursday evening for my Utah baby shower. We're so glad we came down that night because then we had all day Friday to hang out and enjoy our vacation. Friday was my nephew Ryan's 15th(!) birthday. To celebrate, Justin treated us all to Ruby River Steakhouse, which was absolutely delicious! Of course, Levi and I also had to make the obligatory trip to Ikea on Friday but it was even more fun this time because we got to buy BABY stuff!

Mom & Rachel at Ruby River.

Justin & Ryan and Ry's new ipod. Pooh Bear is 15!

We got to visit with my Grandma and Grandpa Allen at their home on Saturday and Sunday and we were delighted to see their cat Charlie was recently fed some humble pie.
This is what Charlie used to look like:

And here is what Charlie looks like now:



Ha! He had to be trimmed like this because of all the knots in his long fur. I love his little Ugg boots and his poofy tail. He seemed to be over the embarrassment while we were there, but I hear that his ego was bruised the first couple of days. Poor, poor Charlie!

Saturday was the day of the shower and what a great shower it was! My aunt Barbara has an awesome clubhouse at her condo and it was totally perfect for the shower. Laurie and Bonnie did such a great job with decorations and food and it was just a nice event. We played a couple of games and then I got to open all of the baby's awesome presents. She is going to be one well-dressed kid, let me tell you! The women in my family know exactly what looks cute on a baby and I cannot wait to start taking pictures of her in these adorable outfits. We also got a great umbrella stroller (thanks Whitney & Bekah!) some adorable stuffed animals and a bunch of cuddly blankets, amongst many, many other great things. I am so grateful for everything everyone did. I especially want to thank everyone who helped Grandma Allen be there. I know it was really hard for her but it was so wonderful having her there. Her spirit makes everything better and I am so thankful I got to sit next to her and enjoy her company for a little while. Plus, she wore her adorable cat sweater which is a total bonus!

I am so sorry I didn't get very many good photos of the shower. I am missing lots of people in these pictures, but I will blame it on the fact that I hired two seven year old twins to be my photographers and the balloons and candy proved too tempting :)




We were super sad to pack up and leave on Sunday, but hopefully we'll be down a couple of months after the baby is born. I miss you all so much and I hope everyone knows how much I appreciate everything.
Love you!!

Too early for spring cleaning?

My sister Heather has been on an organizing kick and recently took all her dvds and condensed them into one zip-up CD case, rather than dealing with all the space the dvd cases took up. I told her that I could never do that because I love to look at the dvd cases whenever we watch a movie, but once she showed me the space she saved by doing it I was sold. We had eleven ikea boxes, each measuring about 11" wide, 15" long and about 9" high, filled to the brim with dvds. I think our final count, not counting box sets, which we'll keep in their original cases, we had about 280 movies.
I had a great time going through all the boxes, alphabetizing and purging movies we'll never watch again. We ended up taking about fifteen movies to the Hastings down the road from us (for my Utah readers, pray that you get a Hastings one day. It is a most excellent place to kill time) and trading them in for $35 store credit. I'm stoked! At first I was sad to lose the dvd cases, but the amount of space that we opened up in our dvd closet is incredible! I couldn't just stop after the dvds and ended up going through everything in that closet, finding great pictures and other trinkets that we had forgotten about, as well as throwing out lots and lots of crap that surprisingly made it through our last move. Sometimes I look at old crap in my house and think, "How could this survive a move? At no point was I motivated to throw it out? I actually boxed it up and moved it with us??"

The final product. 3 neat, tidy cases filled with our many movies. Thanks for the inspiration, Heather!

Louie helped oversee the organizing.

Louie and Levi relaxing after their big day of cleaning.

Also this week, I found out Kid to Kid was having a massive 75% off sale. It was mostly winter stuff, they are making room for all their spring clothes, and I found some amazing deals. Heather and my mom helped me wade through the piles of clothes and I found all these great items for only $15 total!! Talk about a great deal!


I am getting so excited to come down to Utah next weekend. We're leaving late Thursday so we can have all day Friday and Saturday before we come home Sunday afternoon. Can't wait!
Finally, I had to post this cute picture of my niece Eliza. She recently got bangs and I think she looks great. Such a grown-up girl! I love when she comes over to our house and hangs out. She always has great stories and is such a blast.

Happy Birthday...Everyone :)

This part of the year is filled with lots of birthdays in my family, so I'm going to do a mass birthday shout-out.

Happy Birthday, Whitney! My darling niece Whitney turned eleven years old on January 6th. I cannot believe she's this grown up already! I love you and miss you so much!


Happy Birthday, Carlie Paige! My niece C.P. turns *gasp* thirteen years old today! Welcome to the teenage years Carlie...I'm sure they'll be good to you!


Happy Birthday, Scott! My amazing big brother Scott's birthday is tomorrow and I wish we could be in Utah to celebrate it with him! Love you, Scott!!


Happy Birthday, Laurie! My gorgeous sister Laurie's birthday is on January 28th. I hope it's an awesome day for you, Laurie, and I hope Justin spoils you rotten! You deserve it!


Happy Birthday, Ryan! My stud nephew Ryan turns 15 years old on February 4th (or as he used to say when he was little, "Feathermerry 4th") Ryan, only one more year until you can date and drive...where did the time go??


I look at all these pictures and I can't believe how lucky I am to have such an amazing family. I love you all so much and wish you the best of birthdays! Now go eat some BT Cake!

My enemy, the door stopper.

Lately I haven't been getting the best sleep in the world. It's a combination of things: frequently having to pee, heartburn like I've never felt before, stress and worry about the upcoming months, not being able to sleep on my stomach any more, etc. I'm actually grateful to be getting less sleep because then it won't be such a shock when the baby comes and I'm awakened several times throughout the night. I'll be a seasoned pro!
Anyway, when sleep does finally come, I'm often startled out of my sleep by the new bane of my existence:

The door stopper!
Louie the cat has found that batting at this with his paw makes a loud, pleasurable "BOIIIINNNNGGG" sound, but he's not interested in making that sound at say, three o'clock in the afternoon. No, he finds it to be a great sound at three o'clock...in the morning. And it's not just that he bats at it softly and it makes a quiet "Boing" sound. He pulls it ALL the way back and then releases it like a slingshot. It is so loud! There is nothing quite like finally drifting off to sleep at 2:30am, only to wake up with a heart attack at 3:30 at the springy sound of the door stopper. Louie can't figure out why he keeps getting pillows thrown at him. I'm going to be proactive tonight and cover the thing up, which will hopefully break Louie's habit of it, because if he does that when the baby is sleeping in her cradle I'm going to throw him out on the streets.

Anywho...
I had a moment of clarity today that broke through my otherwise cloudy pregnancy brain. Right now, Levi's clothes are stacked in cubes in the baby's future closet. We've been trying to find an inexpensive dresser to put in our bedroom so the baby will have the closet to herself. We've been unable to find anything and finally decided to fork out $150 while in Utah in February to get an Ikea dresser. Then it hit me: I already have my dresser inside my closet in our bedroom. I can pull that out, put it where we were going to put the NEW dresser and stack Levi's cubes in our closet. DUH!!! How had nobody thought of this before!? We seriously almost spent a bunch of money on something that was totally unnecessary. We just needed to think outside the (dresser) box. Unbelievable. It will be nice to have all (or at least some) of my intelligence back.

Levi is spending another Saturday helping his dad Brad and stepmom Julie with their new rental property. Brad has been delving into the property world and has been quite successful so far. The newest place needed quite a bit of work and Levi has been more than happy helping him with all the projects on the weekends. I like it because Levi is learning some great home improvement things, I just feel bad when he comes home all tired and he has to actually fix things that are broken at our house. Recent and future projects at our house include a leaky kitchen sink, a rain gutter that blew off the house in a windstorm last summer, a garage roof that needs to be re-tarred (ha ha...sounds like retard), a broken garage door, some loose hardwood boards and a few other things. It's never ending, but it's also really fun to take pride in your own home.

Well, I better get back to organizing our bedroom. Reorganizing is fun, except when you get distracted going through all the stuff. I've hung on to so many photos and letters and it's fun to reread all of them. Focus Carly! Focus!
(Also, it's kind of nice not being able to do any of the heavy lifting, so I get to do all the sorting and planning and then Levi does all the moving. I feel like a queen!)

She's Jammin'

Levi recently got a new iPod Touch (which is AWESOME) and now that he has something that can play music out loud he has been putting it on random and playing music for the baby when we're in bed. He sets the iPod on top of my belly and it's been fun to see which music she responds to.
So far we've learned that she loves old school ska/reggae. Whenever we play Toots and the Maytals she moves around like crazy. This is her favorite.

Ya mon! Hopefully she'll be nice and mellow!

Growing up.

Having a child obviously means some growing up on the parents' part has to be done. This has been most clear this week as we prepare the baby's nursery. We've picked out the paint color, have a general theme in mind, and have spent many hours discussing what the baby might need vs. what the magazines of the world lead you to believe you need. Amidst all of these decisions, we've had to say goodbye to some of our past.

Goodbye pinup girl art and Social Distortion poster. You have served us well. I had the Social D. poster when Levi and I first met, so it's a somewhat sentimental item for me. (The green on the wall is the color we're going with. It's called 'Marsh Fern'.)

Goodbye Johnny-Cash-Flipping-The-Bird-Poster (which has moved with me to nearly every place I've ever lived.) Goodbye Red Sox Dunkin' Donuts Posters. We'll miss you.

Goodbye Nekromantix poster and creepy grim reaper light switch cover. (When my seven year old niece Sydney learned we were having a baby, she looked into the future nursery and said, "Do you think some of this stuff will scare the baby?" The answer is yes, and that's why it's being put away in the shed. LOL!) I bought Levi the Nekromantix poster after we had been together a few months. They're one of our favorite bands and I was so excited to give it to him. Funny how decor taste changes, isn't it?


Speaking of paint colors, we've decided to get rid of the awful teal color in our bedroom (I hated it the minute we put it on the wall, but it's taken a year and a half to get the motivation to change it.) The decision has come down to the top color called 'Twig Basket' and the bottom color called 'Mocha Accent.'
Yes, they are different colors and I'm going with 'Mocha Accent', which sounds delicious.


And for good measure (as well as motivation to start a diet the DAY this child is born) here is a 26 week picture of moi. It's fun having a belly, but the cats are discovering their lap space is slowly diminishing.

Name dilemma.

Levi and I FINALLY came up with a name we both love, a name that is cute for a little girl and mature enough for a grown woman, etc. etc.
Alice.
I LOVE the name. That is until my mom reminded me that it's a Twilight name. UGGHHH!!
I need some advice. Do all of you out there truly and honestly think of Twilight when you hear that name. I won't be upset if you say yes, I just need to know how much of a Twilight name it is. I know it's not Bella or Edward, but is it still in that vein or is it classic enough that I won't have to worry about people asking me if I love those books?
Also, how popular is that name in Utah County?
Please, please, please. Any input is greatly appreciated!!

Nursery opinion needed.

I love the idea of vinyl stickers....they're cheap, easy to put on, can be removed easy, etc.
So, I think I've narrowed it down to two stickers for the baby's room. Which one do you like?

A. (I would be choosing different colors for the cage and the bird, since our wall color will not look like this)


or

B. (There are two different ways to display it, I'll show both.)

Twenty Eleven

I find that, when talking about the new year, I tend to say, "Two Thousand Eleven" and not, "Twenty Eleven." Saying it the second way sounds all futuristic, and since I still don't have a flying car, I don't think we've reached "the future" just yet :)
Levi and I had a great New Year's Eve. We went over to Chris and Avery's house and played games with them and Sevy and watched the countdown to the new year.
How time flies!!
I was looking up my blog posting from January 1st of last year and I can't believe how fast the time has flown. I get 2010 and 2009 mixed up all the time (like how I keep thinking that we went to Seattle this past summer to see the Sox play, but that was actually 2009 and 2008) and yet so much has actually happened in the past year that should separate it from it's predecessors.
The biggest thing, of course, was finding out we'd be having a little baby in 2011. The other big event was having my mom move in with us, which ended up being so seamless, it wasn't a big event at all!

I was reading my new year's resolutions from last year and I thought I'd see how I did:
1st up: Lose 20 lbs. I actually DID do this, losing 25 lbs over the summer, but, alas, it has all come back with this little baby inside of me! I'm excited to get back on the regimen and take control of my weight once the baby is born. At least I know it's possible!
2nd: Read more "classics". Ummmmm, yeah. This didn't really happen. There's a new film version of Jane Eyre coming out soon, so my goal is to knock that one out before we go see the movie. We shall see. I have a comfort level with my fiction and it's hard to branch out of it, even working in a bookstore hasn't cured me of this.
3rd: Keep a clean home. This became easy around, say, September when my mom moved in :) She is a clean freak and our house has never sparkled like it does now. Thanks Mom!!
4th: Appreciate what I have. I definitely did this throughout 2010. I've never been more grateful and more aware of blessings we have than this past year. To see the love and support we got when going though all our fertility treatments was overwhelming and I'll never forget just how lucky we are to be in the place we are. I don't take anything for granted and I hope I can teach that lesson to my daughter someday. We are so lucky and our lives are so good right now. I can't wait to see what 2011 brings!

So here are a couple of my 2011 resolutions:
1. Enjoy my time with Levi before the baby comes.
We've been going on more dates and I hope to get a lot of time in with him before April. He is my best friend and I love every second I get to be with him. This year I'll also focus on making sure he understands how much I appreciate him, rather than bogging him down with a honey-do list everytime I see him.
2. Healthier eating.
Now that I'll be responsible for another life, nutrition is going to be even more important than ever. No more sabotaging myself with chocolate and soda! It is now all about water and oranges!
3. Take time to enjoy the little things.
If I continue to go at the rate I'm used to going, it will be 2050 before I know it and I'll realize that I was working with my head down the entire time. I need to slow down, take deep breaths, and enjoy all the beauty around me.

Well, I hope you all had a magnificent New Year's Eve/Day and here's to a happy, healthy and wealthy New Year!
Cheers!